Wednesday, August 25, 2010

"No matter who you are, no matter what you do, you absolutely, positively do have the power to change"

Saturday, August 21, 2010

My Goal

1. State your goal — what you hope to achieve intent.
I will learn to be proud of my body and confident in who I am. I will achieve this by losing 40 pounds and eating healthy foods, drinking water and dieting. I will not allow myself any negitive thought that are hindering to my goal and I will strive everyday to be my best.

2. How do you feel about this goal, why is it important to achieve? What are the differences between the existing situation and the changes you want to see?
I feel like my goal is something that I must do. It is important to me to achieve this because I am not happy with the way that I look or feel. I hate not having engery and I dont like looking at myself in the mirror. When I begin to have confidence back in the way I look I will begin to become proud of myself again and I will be happier with me. This Goal is life changing.

Here I truely go...

Well I can go on with excuse after excuse about why I havent truely started my challenge yet or I can accept the fact that I havent. I just havent started yet. I guess the main honest to God reason would be that I am lazy and didnt want to get my butt out of bed at 5am. Well now that I can coming to the deadline of when I can truely start I had to evauate my true reasons for wanting to do this. It is not easy to sit down and truely look deep inside of yourself. What I saw was ugly and I want nothing to do with it. I had to come to terms with alot of stuff and now I can say I am truely doing this for me!
So here I go...

Thursday, July 29, 2010


So I have really been thinking about what exactly I want my goals to be this first challenge and I have put alot of thought and planning into them....
1. I want to gain back my self confidence and feel attractive
2. I want to learn how to eat healthy and continue to eat that way
3. I want to make a habit of exercise and healthy lifestyle
4. I want to go from a size 17 to a size 10

This is my goal bathing suits (it may take me more than one competition but I am not going to give up!)

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Can I really do this?

Anytime I want to quit or choose not to do the challenge I just have to remind myself why I am doing it----- I dont want to look like this anymore!!! I want to be healthy!!!

"Nothing tastes as good as healthy feels"-

Im starting my body for life challenge on Monday August 2- for a few reason... I work full time as a nanny and my job is one of the many things that have contributed to my weight gain, well the family that I work for is going out of town for a week starting the 31, therefore I will have a full week with no kiddy foods around. The second reason that I am waiting to start is because my boyfriends mom is in town and it is to hard to plan my meals around healthy ingrediants, at least the kind that the book talks about. And my last reason is... James and I woke up yesterday morning at 5am and went to the gym. We did an upper body day and lifted like the book tells you to with the dead sets and well I am in major pain today! I know that I will be in pain during the challenge but im hoping to be able to move a little better then.

As I am preparing for my competition to begin i cant help but be fearful that I wont be able to do this, that I will become apathetic and quit. I am focusing on the priorities in my life and those are relationships and health.

What are things that keep you going when you want to quit?

Monday, July 26, 2010


All my life I have been active and very outgoing, but I have always been heavy. When I was 10 years old I remember weighing over 80 pounds. I never wore bathing suits without a shirt over them and I was always nervous about what people thought about me. All my life I have been affected by my weight and I never had confidence in who I am. When I was 20 I got down to the smallest that I have ever been as an adult- 140 pounds and now that I am almost 25 and despise looking at myself in the mirror I am determined to get back down to that size again! I know that this challenge is going to be hard but I am going to do it! And I am going to gain self confidence! For once in my life I refuse to quit! I begin my challenge on August 2, 2010!!! Now I am just doing all the reading and research that I can. My goal for the next week and a half is to be in the gym getting my body use to the exercises, practice eating clean foods (clean eating magazine) and to post a new entry everyday on something that I learned, aka read or was encouraged by... Thank you for your support.... do not hesitate to push me during this challenge if I start to lag... please help me to be held accountable :) thank you.


An introduction to NIKI... Well I will be 25 in September and I work as a full time nanny. I am in love with an amazing man that supports me in anything that I set out to achieve, he is my best friend and someone that I trust. He has also committed to doing this challenge with me (not because he needs to lose weight, but because he wants to support me and see me succeed). I have 4 animal, 2 dogs and 2 cats and also James and I are in the process of buying a house. Its hard for me to give my all though to the things in my life because I have never given my all to myself... I don't think I have ever loved myself and that is my first step. This challenge is probably the most important thing in my life because I need to succeed and show myself that I am truly capable of great and extraordinary things!!! Thank you all for your support!!!